Do you think about your life/ and life in general- deeply? 

Do you think about the mysteries of life and universe or do you take every day as it comes?

There are days where I don’t ponder about life, that I’m just trying to get through the day and there are days where the thoughts of mortality hit me like a ton of bricks.

Earlier this week, I wrote this post about my fear of missing out on things. This fear came after my mom announced her imminent retirement and the fact that she has a small non-cancerous tumor in her head. This made the fear and anxiety bubble up and made me give life further contemplation, as if at any moment, my life will change.

Late last year, I was constantly having weird dreams about car accidents and my left eye was constantly twitching. I am someone who believes in the superstition that if one of the eyes twitches, something is about to happen. I also researched on my dreams and several websites said car accidents mean changes are coming. Early this year, I checked my horoscope and it said the same thing. Changes are coming, whether I like it or not. Knowing this, part of me want it to pass, feeling the frustration of waiting, while another part of me just want to take this day by day and hope it’s nothing bad.

Yes, life and the universe sure is mysterious and while I want to spend my time pondering, I think sometimes, I just want to forget about it and just savor the moment.

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