Don’t worry, I didn’t start any actual fire or burn anything. It’s just a way to describe what I went through this past hour. I feel like I’ve just been burned alive AGAIN. I wanted to take a break from blogging today to study since I’m only a week away from my big test but I just can’t hold this in any longer.
I almost lost it this past hour. Not only has my computer completely freeze twice, within a 5-minute interval but it was during mom’s little “check this check that” routine while yelling instruction in my ears about tomorrow’s task. “Be smart. Watch the time and make sure the garage door’s working in the morning.”
Meanwhile, I was trying to study. I’ve been reading the same passage and question for 30-minutes and have no idea what it mean because I was being distracted every 5-minutes.
You heard about distracted driving being dangerous, well distracted studying is even worse! The second time my computer froze, it stopped for so much longer. Mom just kept on strolling into my room checking if I found the information yet while repeating yet again, the same thing in my ears.
I tried to keep my cool. I told her impatiently, “I know what to do,” because when one of my things stop working, I tend to get all nervous and frustrated. Well, who wouldn’t?
She ignored me and repeated instructions yet again like I was some kind of idiot. It was then I accidentally started the fire. “I KNOW!” I shouted. “STOP REPEATING! I KNOW WHAT TO DO!” I regret saying those words at once because once you get started, she’s impossible to stop. It’s like a wild fire that won’t stop until it burns everything in its path.
This went on for an hour, at least until she decided to go to bed. I have to get everything out of the way so I am not going to bed with a flaming ball of anger in my chest. I hope you understand.
Well, got a big day tomorrow. Got a doctor appointment and then I have to go watch some guy fix the sprinklers at the rental property so he won’t overcharge mom. That’s going to fun, not. 🙂
Thanks for listening and see you back here soon.
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You poor thing. I think I know the problem. You live with your mother. My mother was rather flat, not a lot of personality.but she drove me crazy anyway. You both have a lot of personality-strong personalities. Sometimes it feels as if you’re the mother and she’s the child. Even if you move out she would follow you. it’s up to you to be the bigger person, the stronger person. Try ignoring her after she has told you to do something one time. When she starts repeating, ignore her. Would you feel comfortable locking your door? Put a sign on your door saying something like: Please do not disturb. Studying in progress.. These are just suggestions. As an anthropologist, I was usually called to remediate. So sorry you’re going through this. Lucy
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Unfortunately I’ve tried locking the door, it’s just mde the matter worse. Yes, you’re exactly right! Even if I move out, she will follow me. For example, right here, I haven’t even got into this prestigious program yet in DC and she’s already planning to folow me there. I’ve ignored her in the past but I just thought to fight back for a change, to see the result. Thank you for your suggestion.
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