I have a very awful headache right now. I think I need to lie down. Yeah yeah, I know what some of you’re going to say, I’m young and I shouldn’t get headaches. Well, I’m here to tell you the headache have something to do with my impending doom.

Remember how I wrote this morning that I was glad I don’t need to go car shopping with mom, aunt, and cousin? Well now, I wish so much I had because if I was there, I might had been able to prevent the dreadful thing that’s going to cost me a lot of tears.

Mom bought a new car, a new SUV that was two maybe three times more than what mom and I intended to spend. Guess whose idea is that? Yep, my aunt. She wanted a SUV and she got it. When mom pulled up in the new car, I was like what?

When I asked why she got such an expensive car, my aunt was like shut the f*** up. I have the right to know, don’t you think? Mom was already crazy mad at that moment. My cousin stood by the door and I immediately felt like he’s trying to trigger something.

“You should be happy. We got you a new car.” Well, that was it, the trigger. Mom said it in a mean way that she was heartachy because after a down-payment of $10,000, she still needs to make $280 per month. I know exactly that’s not what she wants and she’s going to take it out on me. That’s why I have a headache. I’ve even already shed some tears. How am I suppose to enjoy something that’s going to make my life awful?

What I want to say to my aunt that I cannot say to her face is:

Thanks a lot from bring hell to my life. Why can’t you see how difficult it is to earn money over here? Why can’t you see my mom’s awful temper, how easy it is to trigger her anger? Were you thinking of me when you selected the car or were you just thinking about yourself? Don’t you know how stressful I am, to hear mom’s frustrating mumbles every day? I’m not sure if you’re tired of it but I have gotten so damn tired of all the frustration and bickering over the past years.