Every parent dreads the day when their son or daughter is leaving home to find a life for themselves. They may try every way possible or maybe even give up everything to get their children to stay a little longer but sooner or later, they know they have to move on. In fact, I believe that is exactly what is happening to me right now.
Since I completed my last course last week, it seemed like I have not had a day off. My mom has been, for the entire weekend, either taking me here and there or assigning chores for me to do during the week. According to her, because I am already finished with school, I now have nothing more to do. Therefore she is now filling up my schedule without me noticing.
On Sunday, we went out to Chinese morning tea with my mom’s friend. Long story short, I am now all of the sudden enrolled back in school! Unbelievable, right?! I just got out of it and now I am back in! It feels like she is doing whatever she can to keep me living at home and being the kind of helpless and dependent person I have always been.
As the matter of fact, I had so much plans for the upcoming year and now, it is completely ruin, all because of a suggestion my mom’s big mouth friend made. Now if I don’t miraculously find a job by the end of summer, I will be shoved back into school for another two years or so getting another degree in a major I have no interest whatsoever! At this rate, I will still be in school when I am 25. When will I get to make the big bucks? When I am 50?
I cannot believe it. She has just shattered all my plans and hopes of ever exploring the world. I rant to my friend about it and she told me to discuss it with my mom. There is no discussing, when my mom say one, you stick with one. You can never win an argument with her. You will just end up to be the one suffering. I wish I can just do what some daring people do, get in their cars and drive as far as possible. All because of two things:
- I don’t have the guts
- I am afraid
I guess I was raised to fear my mother and I may always be afraid of her especially her hot temper. I mean a slight irritation can make her shout at you for the entire night. Maybe one day, my luck will turn and I will finally leave home, preferably before the house gets crowded when her sister and my cousin come to reside in the house.
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