Well, hello, September!

September has always been a good month in my opinion. It’s my birth month, after all, and no, I don’t spend the entire month celebrating my turning-yet-another-year-older, unlike some people. This year, for some reason, I just want to forget about my birthday. It was exciting in the past to be ascending the age ladder but this year, in particular, I just can’t find anything special. Maybe it’s just I reached that age already.

Anyway, August was a month full of garden projects and to be honest, I wish I started the project sooner because mom isn’t allowing me to work on the project next week.

Ah, the garden expansion project.

I couldn’t believe I gave in so easily. Remember when I wrote I would never take her 10% discount? Well, after ordering 40 cinder blocks online, I got in trouble because I “failed” to discuss it with her and she volunteered to go get some of the blocks with me. In offense, I discussed everything with her, she just chose to cut me off with a simple “No.” Guess what, I don’t give a damn because I’m not spending her money.

Last weekend, after once again saying no to proposal to get some stepping stones (bricks), she agreed at the last minute that she would help me to go get the bricks despite I said I would get it myself. Again, it’s because I’d rather pay the full price than waste my time on this BS lecture.

I laid almost 70 bricks between Sunday and Tuesday and seeing we needed more, she agreed to help me transport 70 more bricks on Wednesday. As of last night, August 31, I would say I’m about one-third complete with my project. I would say finishing it by Labor Day (next Monday) is a long-stretch especially because I’m doing this solo. The rest will have to wait until I return at the end of the month and hopefully the ground isn’t frozen then.

Beside garden projects, I had lots of fun in August between department activity and National Waffle Day at work, it made me forget for a moment about the crap I must deal at home.

I cannot believe I will be in Japan in less than 2 weeks. Part of me wants to stay home and finish the garden project, while another part of me dreams of ditching mom and her friends and go explore Tokyo on my own. I know I’d see more alone and frankly, I can’t bear the jibber-jabber conversations between mom and her friends.

The part of me that wants to stay home is the part of me that’s driven by anxiety. That part of me likes routine and traveling completely breaks that and causes my anxiety level to spike and the fact that I’ll be going to a country that’s completely foreign to me… yikes.