S is for Self-Pity.
When my mom, step-father, and I were living together, my step-father would often say, “poor me,” whenever he had to go to work or do something unpleasant. I didn’t take him seriously. I’ve always thought he was doing this playfully.
Until I found myself doing the same thing. I feel I write about the past too much on this blog. I still find myself thinking about the past, fists balled up and angry about all the things I’ve been though even at a young age. Perhaps it’s the reason why I feel unappreciated and sad on some days because part of me is still living in the past, re-living the days of suffering, and that’s sad even for an optimistic person. Time to move on.
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You’re right, it’s time to move to present from the past.
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I do recall some of my past events, both bad and good. But what happened in the past is now in the past.
It is good to move on, for our own betterment
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I feel that if I get it down somewhere, then it’s out of my head and I can move on.
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It’s validation you are seeking. It’s not self pity. I think writing it out is cathartic. I wrote my life story 5 times. The fourth time I presented the copy I was told a memoir needs to be in the present tense. So, I started again. Writing it in the present tense is an experience because you can’t make it sound better than it was, nor can you make it worse. I found that after that effort, which did go to the London Book fair, I was done with the whole thing. It didn’t get published, but I was glad about that in the end.
Anyway, just a different way to look at your writing.
Feeling sorry for your younger self is quite normal if your younger self was hurt and not comforted. Don’t drown in it, but validate the experience.
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I feel writing it down makes it more real, otherwise, it will just live in my head forever.
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I think you are just lovely. I see my potato plant and I wish I could show you… look! But it may not be making babies. I still love it. Because of you! Blessings and love.
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My potatoes are going crazy and sprouting all over the raised bed I put them in. I didn’t know they’d be so invasive.
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Maybe it’s a potato year! 😆
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I have a feeling my potatoes this year will be better than the last.
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I read somewhere when we constantly look back, we aren’t looking forward and thus not living. Good luck working through this.
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