Good Saturday morning! Thank you for joining me for another edition of #weekendcoffeeshare. Come on in and enjoy a cup of coffee with me. I have so much to tell you!
If we were having coffee, I would apologize for not joining in last weekend. I was simply too tired from the late nights.
You see, I spent last Saturday evening barbecuing, playing miniature golf, and chatting with my church friends over frozen yogurt. Time flies when you’re having fun. Before I knew it, my mom was texting me asking where I was and when I was coming home. It was almost 10pm and apparently, I had a curfew I was not aware of.
The next morning, I got a stern look and a short lecture about not tell her I was going to be home late. “Well I did tell you,” I replied, “but you were too busy watching your political YouTube videos to pay attention to what I said.” She plays those videos so loud nowadays that I have to plug my ears with noise-isolated earbuds just to hear anything.
If we were having coffee, I would tell you I had just about the best birthday on Monday and this was made possible by my church friends, Facebook friends, blogging friends, and co-workers. I was presented a birthday cake – super moist strawberry cake with kiwi and cream cheese frosting – during my weekly Bible study on Sunday night. It was delicious.
Then on Monday morning, I was showered with a birthday card signed by all my co-workers and a bunch of balloons. For lunch, I got to choose a restaurant. I chose Cheesecake Factory because I have never been there. The food was fantastic and at the word that it was my birthday, I was presented with a free sundae. So good.
Everything went downhill two days later, the day I finally received the print copy of the anthology featuring my story.
If we were having coffee, I would tell you I got my very first car last Saturday. It didn’t take me long to decide since I did all my research and decided on the car to buy the night before. I got a brand new Chevrolet SUV. I originally didn’t want a SUV because they’re too big of a car for me. However, after I saw and compared the SUV to the sedan, I realized the SUV was a bit smaller than the sedan. So that was my final choice and the entire process took less than 4 hours. Fastest car purchase ever.
So far, other than driving the car home from the car dealership, I haven’t been able to take the car out of the garage. That actually is the reason why the rest of the week went downhill.
And all I said was I want to drive to work, so instead of waiting for the 3pm bus, I can come home two hours early and do some chores. You can do a lot in two hours. That conversation ended with an ultimatum of three choices and the revocation of car privileges except it wouldn’t work since I now have my own car. It’s one of the reasons why I bought the car, so she can’t pull that stunt on me again. In an impulse, I wrote this super long Facebook post the following night.
If we were having coffee, I would tell you I have been having on and off fever and chills during the past two days, ever since I have to make the tough decision to give up everything and move out or stay and endure perhaps a few more years of my mother’s narcissism. I believe the fever and chills were caused by stress.
I went and took a look at an apartment yesterday. I liked it but it all came down to my current financial situation. Even though the outlook is good, the current situation is looking very tight.
I told my mom I was looking at apartments when she questioned about how I arrived at the train station so early. She immediately put me through a guilt trip. It made me half changed my mind to stay but then another voice told me, “it’s just another trait of her mental disorder (narcissistic personality disorder).” I had to take numerous deep breath to calm down. It was not easy but I am now more resolved that I must move out soon to detach myself from my mother. I just have to make myself take the next step.
It’s starting to feel like a bad breakup or worse, a bad divorce where I get nothing and my mother gets my house and possession. I am pathetic. I feel like a pathetic idiot right now.
If we were having coffee, I would thank you for joining me this week and hopefully, I will be back this weekend.