Well, what do you know? March is here.
Unlike February, I am actually looking forward to March. I can finally start my spring garden. The days are getting longer and warmer and I have things to look forward to.
February has been a weird month for me. I got bombarded with an emotional monster as well as emails at work. It was a stressful month.
In a post a few weeks ago, I wrote about trying an herbal supplement called Ashwagandha, which is supposed to help with anxiety and stress management. I have been taking this supplement for about two weeks now. One thing I’ve noticed is I have been tired. I went from having insomnia to sleeping 10 hours a day. I guess I am that tired?
Then, a few days ago, something happened. I can’t explain it but it was like a switch flipping off. All the anger, frustration, irritation, and negative emotions were gone, replaced by this brick wall of neutral emotions.
In simpler terms, I feel nothing, not numb, just plain nothing. I don’t know whether that’s good or bad. Maybe mom has managed to suck all the happiness out of me and now I must rebuild or maybe my brain is protecting me by blocking my emotions. Either way, it’s been a strange few days.
I’m looking forward to March because the photography class I signed up back in January will finally begin. I can’t wait to learn about other photography compositions beside the rule of thirds, which I have been using for most of my photos.
I’m also looking forward to the department quarterly event at work. We are going to see a movie. It’s been forever (about 14 years) since I last seen a movie at the movie theater and we will get the entire theater to ourselves, that’s pretty sweet.
First though, I have to get through an oral surgery, the one I was supposed to have in February but got delayed. I hope this won’t get delayed again.