How well are you looking after yourself, health- wise?
I’m sad to say I haven’t been taking care of my health as well in the last year or so as I had before then. In 2019 and even into 2020, I would be buying a shopping cart-full of vegetables like baby potatoes and bell peppers and read every food package label to make sure it’s minimally processed and it contains ingredients I know. Not only did I often loaded up $40 to $50 of groceries, a lot of the times, mom would complain about me taking up her valuable space in my fridge with my healthy foods.
Maybe I got tired of the complaints because, one day, all of a sudden, I became disinterested in food. Every meal, I was just like whatever. I ate whatever mom wanted me to eat as opposed to constantly having the urge to cook my own meals. My interest in food still hasn’t found its way back to me, even to this day, and each time I stepped into a grocery store with mom, I can’t think of anything to buy. I think it was one more thing I’ve given in life because of mom. I just hope with her complaints and screaming, I don’t give up on gardening.
Maybe my disinterest in food also had something to do with my doctors dropping interests in my health issues. It’s been 7 years since I was somewhat diagnosed with Lupus and 3 years since I was told I have low white blood cell count and low platelets. The hematologist stopped seeing me as of 2022, saying she couldn’t find the reason why my blood is the way it is. As much as I want to worry about it, there’s no use. Doctors don’t even care, they would turn the other way and charge me $200 for 15-minutes just to tell me there’s nothing they can do.
I’m still seeing my rheumatologist every 6 months but my dermatologist and endocrinologist have been switched to a yearly visit. The doctors have stopped trying to dig for answers about whether or not I have lupus as many of the tests were unconclusive. On that note, I feel I should just eat the best diet possible and just try to live in the moment.
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Thanks for sharing Yinglan. I can see how the reaction of your mom and the disinterest of your doctors have made you lose interest in what you eat or about your health. I think eating organic and healthy is always a better option and since you’re growing a lot of your own vegetables, it most help.
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Yes, it does help, during my off-time from my mom, I like to go pick kale and make a veggie stock with it and potatoes and carrots, if I have any. It’s absolutely delicious and not to mention healthy.
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Very true.
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I’ve lost interest in food mainly because there is now so much more Hubby can’t eat and worse when. Meals are all over the place unless we have absolutely nothing on that day in which case i can spend time at the cooker, if I’ve remembered to take something out of the freezer. Shopping is equally a chore for the same reasons and I’ll make do with toast or a sandwich.
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Meals are difficult for me, too as the fridge is mainly empty these days and much of the pantry is filled with mom’s snack, which I don’t like. I would feel happy about a sandwich these days as it’s something different than the rice and noodle I’ve been having.
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Not a fan of noodles and neither is Hubby, though he can eat rice so curries and chilli are OK. Bread though not for him.
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