#WeekendCoffeeShare – Exploration of Emotions


Good morning! Welcome, please come on in from the wind and help yourself to a cup of hot or cold beverage and join me for a quick chat.

It’s been very windy these last two days as evident by the rattling and creaking of the house. At times, I’ve felt like the house would be blown apart by the wind like the wolf in the Three Little Pigs story, “and I will huff and I will puff and I will blow your house down.”

I finally got my phone unlocked and switched over to another carrier this week. I was supposed to be switched over at the end of January but couldn’t get my phone unlocked until my phone has been through 2 billing cycles. It seemed like all the problems I’ve been having – poor reception and unable to receive multi-media messages – was solved with the switch. I now have full bars at home and I can receive if anyone sends me any images.

If we were having coffee, I would tell you I realized I haven’t thought much about my emotions the last 2 weeks. There’s been so much going on at work and in life that I’ve stuffed many things in the backseat to be explored at a later time.

The truth is, I find myself feeling many things at the moment with some of the feelings I don’t feel like exploring because of its complexity. The two biggest emotions I have been feeling are sadness and frustration.

I am sad because the only conversation I can have with my mom these days that don’t result in her lecturing me involve the stock market. Ever since her sister returned from China and currently in the room next to mine, she’s been paying more attention to her. I suppose that’s a good thing but it also makes me feel incredibly lonely at times, which I end up putting earbuds in my ears and watching a TV show.

I am incredibly frustrated because it seems like everyone in the family lives with this mentality that they don’t have to learn anything, that they can come to me for anything.

I am also frustrated, not to mention stressed because my mom decided to saddle me with all the household bills, even her sister’s auto insurance. At the moment, I am responsible for all the household bills and with the recent additional of phone lines and carrier switch, my internet + phone bill has increased by about $100 per month.

I switched phone carrier in the first place because of poor customer service from my former service provider and because my aunt wouldn’t settle for having 1 GB of shared data per month. Also, the service was good until recently when I switched to a new phone and lost my priority privilege, meaning only one bar of cell reception at home and only get 4G internet as opposed to the 5G data which I paid for.

That is one thing but telling me to add my aunt as a driver to my auto insurance is something else altogether. She doesn’t have the best reputation when it comes to driving in the US. For example, a few days after my mom bought her car, she backed the car into a pole despite the car came with a back up camera. Yesterday, I watched her back onto my rock garden, nearly squashing my blooming crocuses. Did I mention she can’t read road signs?

Now, anything that happens to her on the road – traffic citation, accident, etc. – will be reflected on me.

Mom has spent the last few days looking for a job for my aunt and I can tell you, it’s a pretty impossible feat. My aunt is a small person. She doesn’t know English, only has a high school diploma with no college education. How does one find employment with those traits?

#weekendcoffeeshare is hosted by Natalie of Natalie the Explorer. I appreciate you stopping by. Until next we chat. 🙂

7 thoughts on “#WeekendCoffeeShare – Exploration of Emotions

  1. Here in Pakistan, cellular companies only provide cellular services without phones. We can buy unlocked phones of our choice and we can decide which data + call package from which company is more pocket friendly, along with unlimited calls and data.

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  2. As you are quite aware, you are shooting yourself in the foot by adding your aunt to your insurance. Any added cost is minuscule compared to the issues and costs that will arise when she has an accident. Only you can decide, but this sounds like a place to draw a line in the sand.

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