Good morning! Welcome to #weekendcoffeeshare, hosted by Natalie of Natalie the Explorer, who is taking a break this week (so no link-up) but please still feel free to come on in and have a drink and a chat.

This was a very busy week with 3 days of training on my new job duties while spending the minutes and hours between meetings performing my current work tasks. My role at work has been in transition for the last few months but this week marked the first time I’m being trained for the new duties. It’s very exciting for me because this was something my manager and I have been talking about for the last 3 years.

In the midst of job training, I applied for a new position within the company – Senior Accountant.

I know, I know, it seems like a betrayal with the job training but the job training this week will prepare me for the new role. According to the job description, it’s just that plus a little bit more.

To be honest, I wasn’t interested until my manager asked. My interest was piqued when he said, “Are you interested in the position?” and his closing remark, “Well, it’s on there if you want to look at it.”

What’s the saying? Why fix something if it ain’t broken?

My eyes nearly popped out of their sockets when I saw the potential salary. I did a quick calculation, it’s about $10-15 K more per year or $6-8 more per hour than what I’m making now, not to mention I would’ve climbed a wrung of ladder with the new position, finally get promoted from being an accounting specialist to a senior accountant. Senior accountant, that has a nice ring to it.

But wouldn’t I be betraying my manager by joining another team? Yes, I will still be in the same department and probably sitting in the same cubicle but he would no longer be my manager.

But the money…

In the end, I blindly clicked, clicked, and clicked, and submitted my resume and application, figured based on all the jobs I’ve ever applied, I got rejected without an interview 85% of the time, so what are my chances? I shouldn’t get ahead of myself. After all, sometimes, not caring about something might end up working out.

So imagine my surprise when my company’s human resource contacted me shortly after I got off work on Friday to schedule an interview for Tuesday. I feel like that ping of anxiety will be with me all weekend.

I haven’t interviewed for a job in over 6 years. The last time I had a job interview was for my current job and it felt like a life or death situation because I had a house mortgage to pay while my savings was dwindling by the day, and my mom was even more off the rockers than she is now – coming home every night screaming accusatory remarks – while I was suffering from severe anxiety – moods swinging between manic and depress. It’s something I never want to experience again. The worst part is, and I’m not making excuses nor blaming anyone, this whole thing was caused by my mom.

This time, however, it’s not a life/death situation. If I get the job, yay, more money for me, if not, oh well, I’ll keep my current job. I guess it’s just a good practice. No pressure.

I appreciate you stopping by. Until next we chat. 🙂