Idiot!

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I had my second interview yesterday for the Senior Accountant position at my current workplace and have been replaying scene by scene in my head ever since. I feel like I have no hope of getting the position. That’s how bad I feel I did.

Somehow, I’m glad. Maybe I’ll just be stuck in my current job position forever and not deal with anything more difficult than an angry customer, it’s just a job, right? A way for me to pay my bills each month. A way for me to invest and save fund for retirement and rainy day.

I should’ve been able to answer the questions, at least make up something on the spot. After all, I have a decent imagination. Instead, my brain froze just as I did on tests.

I talk to these guys every week when I’m in the office, my heart wasn’t pounding out of my chest then. Why was I fidgeting? Why was I nervous?

Test anxiety, that’s what happened.

And those ridiculous difficult questions that they’ve thrown at me. Why this? Why that? Why do I want this position? Why now? Why not a year before when they were hiring for the first Senior Accountant?

What an idiot I was?

But then, they seemed to be expecting me to know the tasks of a Senior Accountant at the company inside and out as if I’ve done the job before. They asked how I can help improve the processes. Hell if I know! I haven’t even seen the process.

As I replayed the interview, something occurred to me. They asked me the same 2 questions over and over like they were expecting me to come up with a different answer each time or were they trying to see if I can come up with the answer they want. The questions are “Why do you want this position?” and “What can you do to improve this position?”

These questions were asked over and over in different iterations, what are they doing? Something deep down told me that maybe they didn’t want to hire me in the first place but decided to give me a shot out of pity and perhaps, obligation?

Of all the job interviews I’ve ever done, I would rank this one as the worst. Maybe I’m just out of practice. Maybe it’s my test anxiety. Either way, I feel my chances to get this position has reduced to near zero after this interview. At least, I still have a job.

16 thoughts on “Idiot!”

  1. They ask the same questions differently to see if you are telling the truth. Some people fake answer but when the question is rephrased, they get tripped up.
    I hope you get the job anyway, and you may. Being honest is a big plus in your favour. We wait to hear. Best blessings.

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  2. Sounds like they were asking you repeatedly to try and draw more information out of you at different points. I had an in house interview for a more senior position and felt like I failed badly, to the point where I sent an email to say I felt there were things I could of developed on and asked for a second interview. I didn’t need the second interview and they offered me the job. I hope your company also sees how hard you’ve worked and take that into account in their final decision! 🤞

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  3. Sorry you feel you didn’t do good on the interview. I’ll bet it is better than you think. Of course you’d be nervous. These people know you, and know your work at the company. I’m sure they just have a certain list of questions they are required to ask. Nothing personal, just routine. You’ve done a great job in the many years you’ve been there, and hopefully they reward you with the next step up. 🙂

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  4. Sorry you had to go through such a stressful interview. Definitely sounded like they were trying to determine…. if you were truthful, or maybe they were just trying to trip you up. Either way…. it was stressful! If you still want the job, I hope you get it! 🤞

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    1. It felt like the latter just because they know me. I later told my mom about it and she, too, felt like they were trying to trip me up. Either way, it’s now done and whatever the outcome, at least I can move on and still have a job.

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    1. I, too, am a private person, especially in real life. Even though the 2 people that interviewed me have been working with me for a while, I doubt they really knew me. They didn’t feel like strangers though, so I don’t know why I was nervous.

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