Ugh! This is so hard because normally, there are so many things to wish for but I’m coming up blank.

First, a preface: I am a very indecisive person due to how I was brought up. My aunts, uncles, and even my mom often lecture me about various things that I’ve done “wrong” like being clumsy and having accidents and all those things that comes in the territory of being human. I hated (still hate) those lectures. If I ever have a child, I would not subject him/her to this as it’s cruel and very shattering to one’s self-esteem.

As I wrote, I hated (still do) those lectures and did (and do) anything to avoid them. So I try to make everyone else happy but myself. To best describe myself, I am a yes-woman even though I don’t want to be. Because of this, I have an incredibly tough time of pleasing myself because I don’t really know what I want, only what others’ want.

The only time that’s been easier is when I’m alone because then, I have a no choice but to think only of myself.

Now onto my first wish!

I wish… I wish… I wish that I was born a typical person without riddled with all these un-diagnosable and un-treatable diseases that made me into this semi-dwarf human being that resulted in being treated like a child even now in my 30’s.

My dad was 5-foot-8-inches tall (1.72 m) – so I’ve been told – and my mom is a little over 5-foot. I don’t think I should be 4-foot-8-inches. It was all because of a mutation in my genes that caused my bones to under-develop. So yeah, I wish to be a normal size person with normal size person problems, is that so wrong?

Second wish!

Would it be wrong for me to wish for a little greed and cruelty in this world?

Even though I only watch the news for the weather forecast, as I wait for the weather-person to come on, I still have to get through some of the headlines, which often include wars, abuses, murders, thefts, etc.

Those news stories made me angry and reminded me of the story of Genesis in the Bible, which is my favorite story in the whole book. I’ve listened to it via audiobook, read it by verses, and even watch video summaries of it to make sure I understood it. I like this story because it doesn’t have anything to do with religion. It’s a story about morality. Don’t villains in most stories always gets the treatment? Hmm… 🤔

Final wish…

This is hard. I want to wish for something wealth-related but at the same time, I don’t want to wish for wealth as I’ve seen in enough movies that these things rarely come to anything nice at all.

Nah, uh, that’s not a wish, so shove it, genie, be patient!

Wealth, to me, is a different definition than other people. Wealth means an abundance of something – food, time, knowledge, money, etc. I also think having an abundance of wealth is about giving back – to help those in need and make my time on this earth more memorable.

So I guess this is it, my final wish. Has my life changed yet, genie? Has the world become more peaceful with less greed and abuses of various categories?

I wish…no, I wish I have the abundance and (perhaps) power to help make this world a better place (in a non-dictator kind of way).