This week on Blogging insights – hosted by Tanya at Salted Caramel – asks:
How do you think this pandemic year has been for blogging in general and your blog in particular?
I think I am going to focus on my blog for this question since I was pretty much absent during the first part of the pandemic which I am now calling the “Pandemic Panic” of 2020.
I’m sure I’ve mentioned this many times before but my mind shut down at the beginning of the thing. All I could do was focus on work. A third of me was in denial – ignoring every news article that the world was in a pandemic. A third was rocking back-and-forth in panic mode like a mental patient. The remaining third was full of optimism that this thing would blow over in a month or so.
My blog had definitely suffered with my inconsistent posting and visiting other blogs. I realize I might had missed quite a bit but at the time, I just couldn’t take reading another thing about how this thing was spreading across the globe interrupting people’s lives. Even watching the news was making me anxious.
I didn’t come to term until late 2020 when I was bottling so much on the inside that I was on the verge of mental meltdown. I decided to come back because of something my dietitian suggested – find a safe space – and that is my blog. I tried sharing with a small circle of friends on Facebook about my struggles but it felt like no one was on my side.
They’ve met my mom, you see, and thought she was the nicest person they’ve ever met but that’s only a façade. It’s what she does whenever she meets people but when she’s alone with me, she would tell me the most vicious things about that person.
It’s why I ended up quitting Facebook and just focus on my blog because no one’s met my mom here. No one knows about her façade. No one will scold me about feeling certain ways.