#WeekendCoffeeShare – February Update

Hello, welcome to #weekendcoffeeshare!

Grab yourself a drink – tea, coffee, your choice. Me? I will go with a normal cup of joe – black, no cream, no sugar.

I was going to work today but changed my mind to enjoy the three-day long weekend.

If we were having coffee, I would first give you my latest garden update.

The perennial flowers are coming along great. I repotted some of the salvia and chamomile into larger pots. I may had gone a little overboard and over-seeded the salvia. Oh well, my garden can use a few more salvias.

I also started some sweet peppers. According to the internet, sweet peppers need about a 10-12 week head-start before it can be planted into the ground. I wonder what colors my peppers will be this year as I am using a kaleidoscope blend which contains different colors. They germinated on the 16th, so it should give them plenty of time before they outgrow their pots.

It feel so peaceful sitting on the couch looking at the greenery.

If we were having coffee, I would tell you I decided to give ashwagandha a try. It’s an Indian herb that’s supposedly able to help with stress and anxiety. Out of 100, my stress level, according to Fitbit, has been in the 70’s lately. I’ve been irritable, moody, tired but unable to sleep, don’t know whether it’s the middle of the night wake up call from mom’s videos next door or something.

I’m hoping this can help.

Especially in the last two weeks, I have been so confused about my moods. It’s up. It’s down. I don’t have time for roller coaster rides.

I think mom might had attributed to that. We had the exact same argument two weekends in a row. She started each time when all of the sudden, she started screaming and shouting like a child who didn’t get what he or she wanted.

Two weekends ago, I was working and she wanted me to look at her shingles for the umpteenth time that day. She accused me of not paying enough attention to her when I told her her shingles remained unchanged. I was on a tight deadline and I did want to get off work.

Last Sunday, I had just finished setting up my mini-greenhouse when she started screaming again, calling me a horrible person for not cleaning the house and always make her do it. In my defense though, I tried to clean the house but she would go back and re-clean everything minutes after I’ve done it while accusing me of doing a horrible job on purpose. So what’s the point?

As she cleaned last weekend, she continued shouting, calling me a horrible person and how God will punish me for abusing my mother.

Really? I think I’m the one being abused, not her. Every time I head out, I get interrogated when I return. Whenever I get a package, I get asked why I bought it. I hardly get any privacy in my own house. If anyone’s abusing anyone, it’s not me abusing my mother.

I have been taking this herbal supplement (ashwagandha) for the last 2 days but haven’t felt any difference yet. I have to hide it in my purse because she doesn’t believe I am stressed and have anxieties. If you asked me a few months ago if I would try supplements to reduce anxieties and stress, I would probably say no but I think I’ve gotten desperate and at this point, I’m willing to try anything.

I hope you’ve enjoyed this short and sweet edition of #weekendcoffeeshare, hope to chat again same time next week.

16 thoughts on “#WeekendCoffeeShare – February Update

  1. Hi YingLan,
    Wow. No peace in your own home. I’d be a mess after only a week of what you deal with.
    I’d be looking for some way to move out, which is likely too hard / expensive, or lacking that finding some place where I could spend a few hours between work and home, just enjoying the quiet to let my mind settle. Maybe a coffee shop with a deck and good view or (my secret idea) hotel lounges sometimes have quiet corners where you can buy a drink or snack and just sit as if you’re waiting for someone. Someone sitting there with their laptops are common and many can be very quiet in-between rush times.
    I hope this settles out for you somehow.

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    1. Nope, I’m afraid not. For some reason, mom is over-reacting to just about everything. This morning, she started screaming because I accidentally left a mark on the kitchen stool. I mean, seriously. She acted like I’ve done it on purpose. What about all the times she scratched the stools? The stools are old, anyways. *sigh*
      That’s an interesting idea – finding a coffee shop. Just thinking about it makes me feel a little better, calmer. ๐Ÿ™‚

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  2. So sorry you are going through all that. It is not easy for anyone to deal with difficult parents. Hoping you find a way to get a breather, even for a few minutes at a time. ๐Ÿ˜”

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    1. I have been able to take a breather while walking in the park but it’s not always easy for me to get out of the house without mom questioning my whereabouts and giving me errands and timing my durations. I try to savor those moments whenever possible.

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  3. ๐Ÿ™‚ Oh, my goodness,
    you have a lot on your plate to deal with! I understand that looking at your greenery gives you some peace of mind.
    Is there a possibility – like Gary suggested – for you to go to a coffee shop, hotel or maybe even museum, where you can just sit and give yourself a breather after work and before going home?
    Try and look out for yourself a bit more. If you feel the supplements are good for you, then take them. Lavender might help with your sleep.
    Take care and have a HAPPY weekend ๐Ÿ™‚

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    1. Unfortunately, I’m still working from home at the moment and the only day in the office is Tuesday or Wednesday and I often work until mom calls me home for dinner which doesn’t exactly give me the leeway to go anywhere. I have been able to go to the park and walk a few laps there and that seemed to help. The problem seems to be I can’t get out of the house without mom questioning where I’m going and make me run errands while I’m out.


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