Are you a person with a logical way of thinking or an emotional one?

My mom often tells me I have a low EQ (emotional quotient) because I don’t often react to things the way she expects and I think she’s kind of right. I have a very hard time reacting to anything. I once did some research on the internet and told me I might be on the autism spectrum but I think it more has to do with how I was raised.

When I was 7, after mom left for the U.S., I was sent to live with my uncle (mom’s brother-in-law – the one we recently ex-communicated). He’s a bully, essentially, blames everyone around him (mostly me) but himself while there’s a chance a temper tantrum or a one-sided argument can be triggered by a single action or a single word. I was deathly afraid of him (still am) and often had to please him by telling him what he wanted to hear instead of telling him how I felt.

Living with him, my aunt (mom’s sister), and my cousin for those 3 years had created a wall that stopped me from having emotions.

After coming to the U.S. and away from the toxicity (or so I thought), that wall began to break down. That is until the recent years.

So, when it comes to making a decision, I am pretty sure I make them based on logic, not emotions, because I can’t make decisions based on emotions when the only emotion I experience on a day-to-day basis is the overwhelming amount of anxiety.

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