Can I just have warm water this time instead? I haven’t been exactly feeling like myself during the last few days.

Why? What’s wrong?

[Shaking head] It’s probably nothing. Maybe it’s just the late night dinner has finally caught up with me. It’s stinks when you have night classes, you know. You end up eating dinner at 9 pm and it’s not always healthy. I had a couple of cup noodles now and then but it’s almost over.

So any new excited story during the last week?

Surprisingly, no. I mean I went to another Christmas party a couple nights ago but I didn’t take a lot of pictures. No one else brought their camera and I didn’t want to feel like the weirdo that snaps pictures at everything.

But yeah, no exciting story like last week. In fact, I had some trouble with this post. I thought about canceling it this weekly series but after failing to continue my Reflection series after 10 posts, I think this awesome series deserve more than 4 posts.

You can’t cancel this awesome series. If you do, I’ll no longer have an audience. I’ll just return to only a voice in your head. I don’t want that. No No No!!!

Okay okay, chill! Maybe it’s just the monotony of finals week. Maybe I’ll have something fresh and new next week.

Is that why you’ve been pretty much away last week?

Yes and no. I’ve been studying for my finals, yes but it’s not just studying for finals all day. Last Wednesday, the new treadmill finally arrived! I’ve been using it, A LOT. Although pretty much everyone says I don’t need to lose weight but in my opinion, I need to lose at least 10 pounds. I probably around 1,000 Calories and walked 8 miles in the last 3 or 4 days.

Everyone in my family is always calling me fat and I find that very hurtful. Not everyone can maintain such a thin structure. I’m consider the biggest person in my family and by big, I mean wide. Everyone’s bone skinny, boy or girl. They eat a lot but they never gain any weight. Lucky!

I know how low confident I am sounding right now but honestly, I want to shed the weight so I can fit in. So my family and even my mom’s friends would stop calling me by the hurtful nickname “fat girl.”

Seriously! That’s hurtful.

I know! I tried telling them to stop calling me that but all they did was laugh in my face especially my aunt. Hello, not everyone is born into such thin bodies. Some of us have to actually fight hard to get to that place.

You’ve said it. So any plans after finals?

You’ve asked it like two weeks ago, remember?

Oh right. Hehehe, guess I had a pretty week too.

In case you missed last week:

Coffee House Ramble #4