Paula Light is the lovely hostess for The Monday Peeve, where we get to complain our guts out to make ourselves feel better.Continue reading “Monday Peeves – Lion’s Den and Swearing Unknowingly”
Paula Light is the lovely hostess for The Monday Peeve, where we get to complain our guts out to make ourselves feel better.Continue reading “Monday Peeves – Paranoia or Something Else?”
Paula Light is the lovely hostess for The Monday Peeve, where we get to complain our guts out to make ourselves feel better.Continue reading “Monday Peeves – Poor Timing for Laughter”
I’ve been meaning to join Paula Light’s The Monday Peeve for a while now but always find myself in the midst of my busy busy work. Ugh!Continue reading “Monday Peeves – Minor Monday Annoyances”
I have this feeling this is going to be a rough week.Continue reading “Monday Thoughts – Rough Week Ahead”
If there is ONE lesson I learned from the 2022 garden, it would be plants like the sun but not love the sun. I learned that most vegetables like cucumber, squash, beans, and even tomatoes benefit from a bit of shade.Continue reading “Reflection on the 2022 Garden – Lesson Learned”
When I went out to try to rake the leaves and dead grass to try to expose the soil on Saturday morning, I found the ground was frozen solid.Continue reading “Reflection on the 2022 Garden”
For some reason, I’m feeling anxious about this Monday.
It’s my final counseling session with my therapist and as I ponder on what to discuss, all I can think was yesterday, Sunday. So much about yesterday peeved me. The only parts that didn’t peeve me were the solo walk along the forest trail and all the wonderful photos I took on my walk.
It was actually mom’s idea to go to the forest yesterday. “I need to go breathe in some fresh air.”
She didn’t want to drive her car though and she didn’t want me to drive, so she dragged her sister and brother-in-law (BIL) along, assigning him the role of the driver for the trip. As usual, I was the navigator, which is the most annoying task ever since mom was doing the navigating from the backseat while telling her BIL to ignore everything I said.
The forest was wonderful – so cool (temperature-wise) and lush with greenery. I had a suspicion that it rained the night because the ground was wet and there were water droplets on the plants. I hurriedly abandoned the adults while I hunted for a location to practice long-exposure photography.
After taking all the long exposure photographs I had wanted, I began wandering down the forest trail while paying attention at my surrounding to find interesting photo compositions. After a while, I caught up with them as they were returning to the parking lot.
The next activity on mom’s agenda was food and her BIL suggested the only restaurant he knew – Burger King – and that was what mom wanted as well. In fact, it’s just about the only restaurant mom will eat at these days. Unfortunately, there was no Burger King nearby, which was odd considering all the other chain restaurants were nearby. I tried to search for the next best thing but they don’t like any other fast food restaurant. So I suggested Texas-style barbecue.
Her BIL agreed. However, when we arrived at the restaurant, she refused to order anything, and in the oddest fashion, she asked for a coffee. Um, coffee in a barbecue joint on a Sunday afternoon? The guy looked at her and then replied apologetically, “Sorry, we don’t have coffee.”
As the food arrived, after taking a bite of the beef brisket I ordered, she said, “The meat is overcooked. It’s terrible.”
Then she started reflecting on the barbecue joint we once gone to just outside of Austin, Texas. “The line was out the door and round the corner,” mom said and as she said, my anger level ticked up ever so slightly.
Why can’t she keep her opinion to herself? I thought and before I could stop myself, I said, “I ordered the brisket for me. If you don’t like it, order whatever you want for yourself.”
“I don’t want anything.” She pouted. The only reason you don’t want anything is because this isn’t Burger King, I thought.
As we got up to leave, while mom and her BIL went to dispose the trays, my aunt whispered to me, “Just do what she says,” which was the other thing that peeved me about yesterday’s outing.
Um, excuse me, I wanted to say, I’m not a yes-woman or a robot or a dog. I am entitled to my own emotions and opinions, but that’s when mom returned, ushering us to leave.
Wow, it looks like I have quite a bit to discuss with my therapist.
It’s been a while since I’ve shared any thoughts on a Monday…Continue reading “Monday Thoughts – Emotional Stress”
This doesn’t feel like a Monday to me. Maybe because I don’t have to work this week. I am sorry to those who does, it must feel awkward to work even a few days if you have two long weekends in a row.Continue reading “Monday Thoughts”
According to Fitbit, my stress management score has been around 75 for the past week. Maybe it’s because work is just about the only thing occupying my brain these days. So much to bill, so many accounts to reconcile.Continue reading “Monday Thoughts”
Maybe I’m just looking for trouble despite my muscles protesting yesterday or maybe I’m just stubborn.Continue reading “Monday Thoughts”
It’s once again Monday and I have a feeling this is going to be a rough week.Continue reading “No Rest For Me”
This Monday has been brutal so far. I didn’t want to get up this morning and the moment I did, I wanted to curl back under my comforter. It was so cold and I was so tired. I wanted to turn on the heat but mom was having hot flashes and sweating like crazy. She even had the windows open. It’s 40-some degrees outside, come on!
Is this what it feels like after a 56-hour work week? I’ve been working overtime every week since I started but never have I worked on a Saturday. I think being mentally strained is worse than being physically strained.
And of course, having a mom and family like mine, God forbid I should have one day off. My aunt dragged me out yesterday to have me take her to work and buy two boxes of cup noodles for her on my way home. Of course, when I visit a big box store, there’s no way I would ever make it out with just 2 boxes of cup noodles. I ended up getting some batteries and 2 gigantic (27 gallons) storage containers for my garden stuff.
They looked big at the store and even bigger in the back of my car but when I started putting stuff in them, they were smaller than I thought. I might need one more…or two.
After all of that was done, I was so tired and sleepy even though it was only 2 PM.
That’s what I get for skipping my morning coffee…
I barely dozed off when mom woke me up to help her plant some roses in the front yard. No, it’s the ones I propagated last week. They are these beautiful petite rose bushes from her house – the one she refuses to live in.
I ignored her for the first 15 minutes or so but to be honest, I was so tired I couldn’t even open my eyes without them automatically shutting less than 30 seconds later. She stomped her feet – boom, boom – and shouted, “do you know how much pain I’m in? I only do this for you, you know. If you don’t want to do it, fine, do ask me to do anything else for you again.” She stormed off, muttering angrily beneath her breath.
I should’ve replied, “I didn’t asked you to do this, you know,” but that would dredge that conversation from a few weeks ago which ended with her throwing something across the room, nearly missing my head. I didn’t see what it was because I was outside and out of harm’s way by the time what ever it was landed with a thud.
Anyway, I should return to work now.
Today is going to feel so weird. First, I had a meeting at 7 AM, that’s early for anyone. I mean, if it’s still dark outside, then it’s either too early or too late. Unfortunately, the host of the meeting is super busy and that’s the time he has for the meeting.Continue reading “Monday Thoughts”
Mondays are always hard (well, no duh!) especially when one forgets that she set a vibrating alarm on her watch and it goes off right on the dot. This alarm got me jumping out of bed this morning despite being sore all over. It put me in panic mode and I hate it.Continue reading “Monday Thoughts”
I was glad to see the sun be back to its yellow shining self this morning despite still seeing a little bit of haze linger in the air.Continue reading “Monday Thoughts”
Can somebody say Deja Vu?Continue reading “More Monday Thoughts”
I was heading to my work’s break-room this morning to rinse my water jug and cup when I saw this.Continue reading “Monday Thoughts”