I heard my voice

Published on by Yinglan

I have never watched a video of myself. Often times, I’m behind the camera, not in front of it. When I visited China more than a decade ago, I didn’t have a camera. All I had was a camcorder with a 3.2 Megapixels camera and during that trip, I took about 4 tapes worth of footage. I don’t know where they are now, somewhere in the basement perhaps. Anyway, not once did I let anyone film instead of me. It was my show and I was the director. So that was 360 minutes of mom, step-dad, step-grandma, and other relatives and I wasn’t in any of them.

Meanwhile, I have heard a recording of my voice and let me tell you, I DID NOT like it. My voice sounds super babyish and whiny and don’t get me started on singing. I thought I have a good voice. That’s why I enjoy singing, right? So one time, I decided to record myself singing and when I played it back, it was terrible! I sounded off-key and that’s just plain wrong. I deleted that recording three seconds in and since then I have never wanted to hear my voice ever again.

As some of you know, I used to be a Toastmaster and for a time, I was my club’s VP Membership and VP Public Relations. We were a small club and constantly trying to get people to join and as an idea to promote the club, I had asked if it was okay if I brought a camera and recorded everyone’s speeches. Everyone in the club turned down the idea, something about being too public. I was disappointed at first but later, I was somewhat glad because I don’t think I ever want to appear in front of a camera.

Therefore, to answer today’s prompt, let’s just say I find both of those things equally unbearable. Although, unbearable might not be the right word. When I listen to my voice, I can’t help giggling, laughing while my face turns cherry tomato red . That sounds more like embarrassed than unbearable and if I do that just by listening to my own voice, I’m not sure what I’ll do when I see myself on TV or something.

As a closing, here is a comic strip I created today and this is as close of a replica of my room as I can make it. QX3JK_35ZJNS

Daily Prompt – Can’t Stand Me

27 thoughts on “I heard my voice”

  2. Yeah I totally get it. I don’t like hearing my voice either. I thought I sounded like a kid when I heard it the first time. I always try to avoid speaking or appearing in front of the camera when someone is recording 😂.

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      1. Sometimes we let it slide and ither times we get a bit ‘jack’of it, particularly my husband thinks it is rude. I can relate to it more as I liked myself when thoughts flow well. But having children forces you to accept frequent interruptions. When they are little you don’t often get to finish your cuppa before it goes cold……..

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  8. Hey you wrote exactly about how I feel about my own voice. But I think we can make peace with how we sound. At least we have a voice to tell others about how we feel right? 😉 Loved your post!

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