2016 so far…

Lately, I’ve grown very sick of my jobs especially my bookkeeping job because my boss’s mood swings is getting on my nerves. At first, I thought that if I could deal with my step-father’s emotional drama, I could deal with this but it’s very stressful to have to come to work each day to listen to a guy complain and whines.

The other thing is my jobs are no longer helping me to pay for my tuition. I’m barely making any income from both jobs combine. I checked my personal income spreadsheet and so far, in seven months, I’ve barely grossed $5000. That’s half of what I made last year. I mentioned my low wage and in need of a raise to my colleague a few weeks ago and he replied, “Why are you complaining? You make more than us.”

I’m the highest paid employee at my bookkeeping job but it’s not at a point where it’s dependable. It’s just barely above minimum wage, even the people at McDonald’s make more than me.Sometimes, one's success in life does not involve a decent education. It is how one make use of one's time.

I’m starting to think college is not worth the time, the stress, or the money. My colleagues only have high school diploma and they are content with working at a job that’s just a tad over the national minimum wage standard. They even seemed happy because at the end of the day, they don’t have thousands of student loan debt waiting to be paid, they don’t have to worry about paying tuition, and best of all, they don’t have to worry about homework, quizzes, and exams.

I think that’s an excellent alternate universe for me. At least, I wouldn’t have nightmares about my financial troubles, about how I’m supposed to pay my tuition with making less than $600 a month and half of that goes to bills and loan payments. My cousin in China is currently living that life and I envy him. He inherited half of the business when his father passed and now, at 21, he’s a successful business man with no debt and a good job. On the other hand, I have a Bachelor degree and five months away from getting another, over $9000 in debt, and working two jobs that’s barely making any salary.

I don’t know what to do as of now. I need to rethink my options. I truly had hoped that 2016 would be the year of change for me but so far, it’s been one nightmare after another, first being threatened to be kicked out and now, financial trouble. I’m so ready to be done with 2016 and move on to 2017, that is unless my luck can turn around during the second half of 2016.

35 thoughts on “2016 so far…

  1. I don’t think you will ever regret getting an education and it will help you go much farther in life than a bookkeeping job at barely over the minimum wage. I understand your discouragement, but hang in there. It will get better! And, I’m sorry to hear you are having to live under the threat of being kicked out. That’s pretty darn stressful.

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  2. I think you’re going in the right direction pursuing a degree. It’ll help you get more than a minimum wage job. Stay strong. Later on, you’ll look back to this very challenging time and feel proud you survived it.

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  3. It is good that you are thinking things through… because that is the key to making a successful decision… whether it be what socks to wear or what career to pursue. I’ve always found it helpful when facing a major decision (greater than what socks to wear) to write on a piece of paper the advantages and disadvantages of whatever direction(s) the decisions can take. Seek counsel from others. Then once the decision is made based on your analysis and counsel… it is extremely important to have enough confidence in yourself to stick with your decision and not lament over “did I make the right choice”?. Analyze the choices… make the decision… and stick with it. I know that is easier said than done in many situations… but it’s the best decision making process I’ve found.

    And one other thing which is easy to remember and is helpful in all of life’s circumstances… is “keep the CODE”. Commitment… Optimism… Dedication… and Enthusiasm. If we can work those components into our life’s decisions and daily activity… it can make an indelible impact on our quality of life.

    Go for it!!!


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  4. Education is always worth all the trouble that comes your way. Yinglan, I know these are bad times but you are 1000 times stronger and more independent as compared to your friends and your rich cousin. Life is tough but you’re tougher. Take a deep breath, and let your boss go to hell. Don’t pay too much attention to the Moron.
    You’re a brave heart. Baby, you got this!
    Good luck. 😀

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  5. When I read your post, I couldn’t believe how much I related to it. I’m going through this right now, however, just a tad differently. I already have a BS degree, and I’m saving money right now to get my second certification in Creative Writing from Berkley. Berkley’s certification program in writing is about the same has one year’s college tuition. It’s annoying, stressful, and makes me wonder if it’s worth it, but if it’s something you really want, then go keeping for it. I know it’s hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but once you bask in the glow of triumph, it will be worth it.

    When I originally got my BS degree, I got a degree that I shouldn’t have. It makes me miserable, and I hate it. Now, I want to get a job in what I should have done originally. Don’t give up, and if you ever need someone to talk to, you can message me.

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    • I felt the same way when I got my first degree. It felt worthless because I couldn’t pass the certification exam which prohibited me to find a proper job. It sucks. Hopefully it won’t happen this degree. Thank you for reading and commenting. 🙂

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      • If you don’t mind me asking, what was your first degree? Mine was in IT! I know, right? So damn random. It got that degree because my parents didn’t think I could get a job with an English major. Ugh, it was one of the worst decisions I ever made. Now I’m trying to get certified so I can write. Stay the course; everything will work out^^ You’re very welcome!!

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      • My first degree was Civil Engineering because I like math and my mom’s friend said it’s a hot field. No it’s not, unless I’m willing to go to war torn countries trying to rebuild the roads and buildings. IT is not a bad degree, it was one of my top choices at the time, my top choice being graphic design. Good luck with your certification. 🙂

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      • Thanks, I hope I get it. I don’t know much about Civil Engineering, but I’m sorry it didn’t work out. What degree are you getting now? And thanks, but my problem is I don’t like working in the technology field, and actually, I never did. I’m hoping to move into a writing job soon. Graphic Design always looked like fun^^

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  6. Yinglan, there is much beyond career and money to be gained from a college education. I do agree that it is too often true that college does not benefit as much as are dreams make us think. But it is very nice to know you have completed that mile stone in your life. It is something to have that you cannot lose. It earns respect. It proves you have fortitude. If I did not believe that I would not have completed my doctorate after seventy years of age. Nil advantages money wise! Actually I seldom think of it, but when I do I’m always glad I did it. You will be too. And it will likely pay you back financially also. Check the statistics! They are in your favor. And you will feel so good when it is over.

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    • Wow, a doctorate at 70! That’s impressive. I sure hope that the statistics is true and I have no doubt I will be very relieved when all of this schooling stuff is over.


  7. 1) You can never be too well educated.
    2) A good education doesn’t necessarily translate into a good job… or even a job at all.
    3) No amount of education and no level of salary guarantees happiness.

    Education, work, and happiness are three completely different things. They can overlap, but they don’t need to. Even making a career out of a passion can be a mistake, turning something you love doing into mere work. If happiness is the objective, then everything else is at best part of a tool-set for achieving it.

    Jobs… Despite the political rhetoric, jobs are disappearing. And It’s not simply because they’re going elsewhere — and those aren’t the kinds of jobs most Americans want to do for “fulfillment” anyway. Despite the bogus government unemployment stats, only about two-thirds of the US labor force even participate anymore . Civilization is just moving into a time when it no longer requires that every person work in order to produce enough for every person to thrive. Production, even of ideas, is becoming increasingly automated. This is why there are starting to be discussions of a “universal living wage.” (The $15/hr minimum wage is just a way to avoid the bigger political debates.)

    This isn’t meant to discourage you; rather, it’s just that this time happens to be right as things are changing dramatically. So when considering education, work, and happiness, you might need to think more broadly and with more emphasis on a direction of your own choosing. Start with what would make you **happy**. Then, think about what you need from an education (a skill, a certification, background, connections, worldliness…), and what you need from work (free time, money, access to a resource, connections, education, fulfillment…). Education, work and happiness are completely different things. They may come to dance together in some way, but don’t conflate them with one another.

    Sorry for the long comment; feel free to delete it if you want. It’s just something I’ve thought about myself…
    recalling my answer to your Liebster time-travel question:
    Q: If you can time travel to any destination in time, what year would it be?
    Q: 1988. I’d like to give myself some advice about a college major. That said, however, I probably wouldn’t listen. So maybe I should just jump a couple of decades into the future and ask for some advice from my future self?

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    • I agree, education, work, and happiness are three separate things but I think nowadays, for many people, these three things act interchangeably, at least for someone who’s starting out in the work field while attempting to be independent from parents. I also agree that pursuing a passion can sometimes be a mistake because it can very easily lead to the passion being nothing merely but a task to be completed.

      Thank you for reading and as always for your thoughtful and insightful comments. 🙂

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  8. An education is always worth it. Knowledge is portable! Remember that where ever you go. It teaches you to think, to consider, to not limit yourself. I’m sure you are much more intelligent and thoughtful than your colleagues. When you are done, you can start a real job. You may start low, but you should be getting more than minimum wage, and your degrees will allow you to move up while those with only HS won’t. Best of luck!

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  9. I haven’t made anything of my degree but I didn’t regret one cent of it.
    I think university is a land of opportunities, it’s really up to the person to capitalise on it.
    I might be a bit slow, a bit lazy, but I think in the long run I would manage worse without it.

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