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In my post on Saturday, I posted this picture at the top of the post.

Sadly, tragedy struck that day. I went to Evanston, Wyoming and left the humidity dome on the large seedling tray. I was supposed to put the seedlings under the shade cloth but instead, I left it on the table. 🫣When I returned home that day, it finally crossed my mind that I had forgotten to move the seedling trays, I went out and saw there was nothing left. The seedlings have been fried to a crisp. I imagine that’s how vampires would self-combust when they come in contact with the sun.

Thankfully, the seedlings in the smaller tray did not get fried. Still, I lost 72 seedlings because of my negligence and it sucks. I now have to start all over again and lost 3 weeks of progress.

What makes this worse than a simple mistake on my part is my mom, there was zero sympathy and she kind of told me, “who cares?”

The thing is it wasn’t my idea to go to Evanston. We were supposed to go the weekend before to claim a lottery winning of $4 but my mom changed her mind in the last minute to this weekend. Add on the fact that I haven’t been sleeping well, not to mention being haunted by good dream and uncomfortable bed cover on a night basis, I ought to forget something.

Please note: I am not trying to blame anybody here. I know it’s my fault but should she had reacted this way?

Do you believe in unconsciously punishing yourself?

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