On the first day of this challenge, I wrote I’m daringly optimistic. Yes, I am an insanely optimistic person and often times, that optimism led to disappointment. Like when I go in for a job interview. As I exited the room, my gut was already telling me I won’t get the job and meanwhile, images of how my life was set to change began to play in my head. I took a deep breath to make it go away but instead, the images just became clearer. It is INSANE!!!
Another time was one week before I was set to move out. This damn optimism cost me a week of sleep. Every minute of everyday, images would play in my head of how I can do whatever I want, how I can finally change my hair style, dye it, curl it, cut it, and how I can finally go anywhere I want. I kept reminding myself, “You might not move,” but there was no competing with my other half which was telling me, “You need this.”
The moment I hung up the phone after telling the landlady I was no longer moving was the moment when the wave of disappointment crashed upon me. I wasn’t upset or relief. I felt nothing other than the ping of what felt like after a child’s told he/she’s no longer receive a toy he/she wanted for Christmas. I think at times, being optimistic is good while at other times, it’s sort of like a curse.
Optimism is sometimes a bad thing, don’t you agree?
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What I find is that it’s sometimes too easy to be pessimistic about things. I don’t know. I think I try to be realistic most of the time, but it’s a hopeful realism 🙂
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Hopeful realism is good and I agree, it’s sometimes too easy for us to be pessimistic.
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Very true. Though I do try to remain optimistic at times.
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I had a friend who was quite the opposite. His logic being “it I assume the worst I can’t be disappointed and things can only get better”
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That’s a good logic. I sometimes use that logic when I’m not being overly optimistic.
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I think it’s always better to be optimistic than pessimistic, but I’m careful about allowing myself to get overly excited about something until I know it will definitely happen. I try to be realistic but on the positive side if that makes sense!
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I’m careful too, in trying to contain my optimistic excitement and it’s often beyond my control but I know what you mean. Being realistic and seeing the bright side is a good thing, in my mind.
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Yes, I agree, Yinglan! If optimism keeps you from see reality … how thing really are …. then it’s not good. I guess you’d call that a pollyanna….. 🙂
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I agree too, it’s not a good thing when optimism is clouding one’s perception of reality. I need to suppress that bursting optimism in me. 😀
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Me too! 🙂
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I always try to remain optimistic even though pessimism loves rearing up it’s ugly head.
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Meanwhile, I do the opposite so I don’t get overly excited. 😀
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I guess we have to exercise moderation in the optimism/pessimism business and include a shot of realism, so we don’t get our hopes up too high. I’ve been job searching for awhile, so I know the feeling well!
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Exactly!
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