Looking back so far…


The new school year is approaching and summer is rapidly drawing to an end. Therefore I thought I’d review how this year has been like so far.

What can I say? This year has turned out just about the opposite of what I expected. I was expected to be officially done with school, move out of my mother’s house, get as far away as possible, and probably make my childhood vision come true. But no, I am still here, have no independent thoughts of my own under my mother’s roof.

I think the best thing that has happened so far is that I have a job that doesn’t involve facing emotionally and morally degraded teenagers who are twice maybe three times my size, being ordered around like a mule, or being sort of a mother figure to a group of adults. Just because you don’t know English, it doesn’t mean you don’t have to pay your own bills. 

The next best thing that has happened is the email I received back in March or April, I’m not sure, about a language program in Georgetown University. I thought it was god-sent, even though I have no idea whether or not I’ve gotten in yet, because I have been looking for the opportunity to get away. My mistake in that plan was telling mom. Now not only she wants to come with but bring her whole family with her! She wanted to go because of the job opportunities but I think she’s worried I am incompetent of taking care of myself.

If I have made a prediction earlier this year of what to and not to expect by this day, I would say I was not expected to return to school. That’s the whole point about graduating, isn’t it? To not have to endure anymore schoolwork? But no, mom didn’t even give me enough time to find a job before pushing me back in school. People need months maybe a year to find a job. She was expecting me to find an engineering job in weeks, how ridiculous is that? Now, I’m busy as heck!

If there are something I dread, it’s the upcoming months. Last fall, came end of August and early September, it was the most chaotic months of my life and that was exactly when I resumed my blog. As I mentioned in yesterday’s post, the Li’s moved into town, we had an international student stay with us and I became a 24/7 chauffeur. Anyway, the end of August this year, mom and I are starting school, I’ll do morning and she’ll do night. Then in September, my aunt and cousin are coming to stay with us and that is what I’m dreading because they live a extra-active social life in China, I’m not sure what to expect when they are here. There is one thing I will not be though, a mother. I have had enough of that when I worked for the Li’s.

Thanks for listening and have a wonderful day! 🙂

4 thoughts on “Looking back so far…

  1. Getting out from under the parent’s umbrella was hard for me too. I’m an only child with no other family to turn to. College was my first opportunity to “get the heck out of Dodge”, but I came back. I attended another college closer to home – had my own apartment, but I came back. I got a job insurance adjusting – which involved out of state work, but I came back. Each time it was harder and harder to live with my parents. No matter how old I was I got treated like I was 12. I made another attempt to leave and moved to another state to live with a friend. Things fell apart but I was determined not to go back home. I ended up moving in with a boyfriend – after 2 years I should have gone home but I went out on a limb and took a job in another state…with no money and no friends. It wasn’t easy, but it was the clean break and jump start I needed to ensure I would never go back. I wish I would’ve/could’ve done it sooner, but I was doing the best I could with what I had at the time – lessons learned.

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    1. Thanks for sharing your experience. I have been telling other people I want to move out for a while and they all say, “you’ll eventually find your way back to your parents.” Maybe they’re right. Maybe moving out is just a way to find temporary peace after living with them for so many years.

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    1. ha ha, I haven’t even finish my summer classes yet! I get it. I don’t want to say it either but it feels like if I say it out loud, then it might not turn out so bad? I don’t know but I can tell you that is one of the things I’m dreading.

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