After doing 20 minutes of meditation this morning, I feel energized and awake. It’s funny how just sitting with my eyes closed for 20 minutes will change me. I used to feel sluggish for first half of the day and won’t feel completely awake until 3 or 4 pm and then when it came to bed time, I would not want to go to bed…and the cycle will just keep going on and on. That is not a good way to get through the day nor life. No wonder I am so angry all the time.
Of course, mom’s impulsive and demanding behaviors still pisses me off but now I know how to let out in other methods than whining and complaining. I’d just shut myself in my basement room, sit, inhale and exhale deep breath, and try to train my mind to focus on the breathing and nothing else. It works for me but the worst part is that when I go up, I still have to deal with it. Oh well, sometimes, we just can’t get all that we want.
Anyway, I just took a quick glance at today’s prompt and it poses an interesting question. At last! The question is: Do you believe in fate or do you believe you can control your own destiny?
I believe in both. I believe that somethings are just meant to happen while some other things are influenced by your actions, which it’s the “you can control your own destiny” part.
Like, if, no matter how hard you study, no matter hard you try, you still cannot figure out the concept or pass a test or pass a class, maybe you’re not meant to succeed in this path. Then maybe you have to choose some other paths. On the other hand, if you choose to fail, then that’s not fate, that’s you choosing to fail.