A-Z Challenge 2016: O for Optimistic


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On the first day of this challenge, I wrote I’m daringly optimistic. Yes, I am an insanely optimistic person and often times, that optimism led to disappointment. Like when I go in for a job interview. As I exited the room, my gut was already telling me I won’t get the job and meanwhile, images of how my life was set to change began to play in my head. I took a deep breath to make it go away but instead, the images just became clearer. It is INSANE!!!

Another time was one week before I was set to move out. This damn optimism cost me a week of sleep. Every minute of everyday, images would play in my head of how I can do whatever I want, how I can finally change my hair style, dye it, curl it, cut it, and how I can finally go anywhere I want. I kept reminding myself, “You might not move,” but there was no competing with my other half which was telling me, “You need this.”

The moment I hung up the phone after telling the landlady I was no longer moving was the moment when the wave of disappointment crashed upon me. I wasn’t upset or relief. I felt nothing other than the ping of what felt like after a child’s told he/she’s no longer receive a toy he/she wanted for Christmas. I think at times, being optimistic is good while at other times, it’s sort of like a curse.

Optimism is sometimes a bad thing, don’t you agree? 

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A-Z Challenge 2016: N for Nature


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Welcome to another Saturday. Can you believe it? We’re at the letter N already and one of my finals is in 5 days. Since I’ve been doing a quote and a song for the past two Saturdays, I’ll do the same today except I’ll feature one more quote before we move to the music.

Reading this quote just makes me want to dream. It makes me feel obsessed about going on an adventure, to go on a hike, to embrace nature. *sigh* Just wish the weather would cooperate.

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Meanwhile, this quote makes me feel serene. I am someone who enjoys the earth’s music very much. It’s very relaxing and calming for the mind. Just listen.

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A-Z Challenge 2016: M for Moment


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Well, I’m not sure if my destiny was shaped but last week, I made the decision to continue school for one more semester after graduation, just one. I know I said for the past two months how I couldn’t wait to get a job and move out but by doing this, it’ll increase my odds of getting a higher paying job.

That’s why I have decided to go for a graduate certificate in information system and technology. It’s somewhat of a mini-Master degree in Information system. I don’t need to take the GMAT to get in and it cost less than a Master degree. So I guess in a way, it’s a win-win. Besides, I think it’s time for me to go for something I actually enjoy doing.

In the meantime, because I’ve somewhat turned my back on my mom, she’s now planning on my cousin’s future. She wants him to learn to fix airplanes or even pilot one. On the phone call to her sister, she says she doesn’t care whether he wants or not but her tones implied otherwise.

Me? I don’t think that’s what my cousin wants to do even though being a pilot does sound cool. I think it’s his decision to decide what he wants to do and no one else should make that decision for him. They’ll just make him miserable.

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A-Z Challenge 2016: L for Limits


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I couldn’t find a great quote on this one so I’m generating my own with my own picture. Continue reading “A-Z Challenge 2016: L for Limits”

A-Z Challenge 2016: K for Kindness


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A-Z Challenge 2016: J for Journey


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A few weeks ago, I participated in my Beta Alpha Psi (BAP) – Accounting Club – annual food drive. Continue reading “A-Z Challenge 2016: J for Journey”

A-Z Challenge 2016: I for Intuition


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A-Z Challenge 2016: H for Home


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This quote is very true in a way and I can’t help but reminisce on this old song when I see the quote.

The lyrics says [credit: lyricmode]:

Some people live in a house on the hill
And wish they were some place else
There’s nobody there
When the evening is still
Secrets with no one to tell

Some I have known have a ship where they sleep
With sounds of rocks on the coast
They sail over oceans five fathoms deep
But can’t find what they want the most

Even now when I’m alone
I’ve always known with you
I am home

Some live in towns
Cardboard shack on concrete
All bluster and bustling life
They search for the color they can never quite see
Cause it’s all white on white

Even now when I’m alone
I’ve always known with you
I am home

For me it’s a glance and the smile on your face the touch of your hands,
And an honest embrace
For where I lay it’s you I keep,
This changing world I fall asleep
With you all I know is I’m coming home,
Coming home

What is your definition of a home? Please share.

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A-Z Challenge 2016: G for Greed


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My mom often complains to me why others can relax while she has to spend all her time working. “What did I do to the world?” She’d ask. “To deserve such a hard life?”  Continue reading “A-Z Challenge 2016: G for Greed”

A-Z Challenge 2016: F for Friendship


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You kinda knew I would do F for friendship, didn’t you? So anyway, I can definitely relate to this quote .

As I’ve said on day three of this challenge, I visited my friend, Kat during spring break. At her home, there were posters of pretty girls taped against her kitchen wall, she said it’s there to serve as her inspiration. I avoided looking at that wall during the remainder of my visit. Looking at pictures of half-dressed girls made me uncomfortable.

That night, after finishing my regular TV hours, I returned to my room to check my texts. Kat had flooded my tablet with texts about how she wanted me to do the Master degree program with her and then we could open a tax firm. Then the following text became about how I have to diet and lose weight, then about how I have to fix my teeth with implants, and how much I need a nose job.

The texts reminded me of my mom and how she’s constantly trying to plan my future for me not to mention, she criticizes my appearance too. It made me wonder, is Kat embarrassed by how I look? When I decided to be her friend, I didn’t realize it would require a change to my physical appearance. I guess what I’m trying to say is like the quote says, I’m not looking for anyone to fix me. I don’t need to be fix or my future planned for me. I just need someone who will be there for me.

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A-Z Challenge 2016: E for Enthusiasm


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People, my boss, friend, etc. tell me I’m going to be a successful person but I’m don’t know. Just because I don’t give up and know how to save money by not spending it on unnecessary thing don’t mean I have the qualities of a successful person.

My mom says I know how to be frugal (cheap) because I don’t know how to make money. That’s partially true, I guess by taking a little money and turning it into a lot is a good skill, don’t you think?

However, if I’m going to be judged according to this quote, I’m not sure if I would be categorized as a will-be-successful person. Sure, I try again and again at somethings without giving up but I can’t say that after ten tries, I still have the same level of enthusiasm for the same task. Therefore in Winston Churchill’s point of view, I may not be considered a will-be-successful person.

What about you? When you read this quote, do you see that in yourself or someone you know? Please share.

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A-Z Challenge 2016: D for Don’t Stop


Confucius Determination quote

I think this is a good quote for the topic because it kind of stand for what I’m doing at the moment. As some of you know, I was to move out last month but I chose to stay due to financial troubles and sometimes, I still regret my decision because I thought if I move out, I could forget everything and focus on myself for once but the truth is, with so much worries of financial troubles, I couldn’t focus on anything.

At the moment, I’m planning on December because that’s when I will finish my second undergraduate degree and hopefully have a better job. I know that December is still a long ways to go but I know that time can speed up if it wants to and I also know that as long as I don’t stop and keep pushing, I will eventually achieve my goals.

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A-Z Challenge 2016: C for Change


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Did I tell you about my new friend, Kat? I met her in school a few weeks ago and at first, I was very happy because making friends had never been easy for me and it’s been a long time since I’ve had a friend. We hit it off and during spring break, I secretly visited her. I’ve been doing so many things secretly lately that I’m starting to get a rush.

Anyway, her home was extremely simple, few furniture and decorations. However, I noticed she had a few posters of pretty girls taped against her kitchen wall. “What’s up with those?” I asked.

“I want to be like them.” She replied right away. Why, I asked her. “I want to be beautiful!”

At that moment, I felt puzzled. She’s already beautiful. She has a husband who loves her for her, who allows her all the freedom she desires, not requiring her to go to work, let her buy whatever she desires, so why would she want to go through the trouble of changing her appearance?

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A-Z Challenge 2016: B for Bold


Be Bold Quote

I think this is a great quote. Very inspiring and motivational. I just wish I’m brave and bold enough to listen to my own heart.

In the meantime, this quote reminds me a lot of this song. It’s one of my favorite songs. Hope you all enjoy your Saturdays.

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A-Z Challenge 2016: A for Aspirations


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A-Z Challenge 2016 Theme


I didn’t know this is theme reveal day, otherwise, I’d be more prepared. Anyway, this will be my second year participating in the A-Z challenge and I signed up several months back. If you look at the sign-up page, I’m number 168, that should tell you just how long ago I signed up.

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Last year, I didn’t really had a theme even though I “claimed” I did. I just went with whatever I could think about that day. This year, however, I do have a theme and that theme is

Quotes!

Each day for 26 days, I will feature a quote. The topic or author of the quote will match to the letter of the day. For example, I for Inspiration. I got the idea from doing the 3 Day 3 Quote challenge and from last year’s participation. Beneath the quote, I’ll write something, maybe the quote is related to me somehow or maybe I’ll pose a question.

I hope you will enjoy the weekday quotes for the next month. Now the question is, can I keep up with this theme? Or will I go off to some random theme in the middle month like last year? Who knows?! I guess we’ll see.

#AtoZChallenge – Z For…


Wow, can you believe it’s the last day of April already? I can hardly believe it. This challenge’s been fun even though my theme’s been all over the place. Continue reading “#AtoZChallenge – Z For…”

#AtoZChallenge – Y For Yellow


An obvious choice, isn’t it?

I went out into the garden yesterday. The storm from two weeks ago and last week had managed to kill all the blossoms. Though the trees grew tremendously, there was nothing but leaves. I doubt there’ll be fruit this year. Continue reading “#AtoZChallenge – Y For Yellow”

#AtoZChallenge – X For X


These last three letters are going to be hard just because I’m already having trouble thinking up with words that begins with the letters X, Y, and Z. Therefore, I’m going to highlight the use of the letter X. Continue reading “#AtoZChallenge – X For X”

#AtoZChallenge – W For West Coast


When I taught English as a Second Language (ESL) at the private school, I used to ask my students. “Where are you going for college?”

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#AtoZChallenge – U For Update


This morning, I woke up to something horrific! The time on my alarm clock read 3:10. I jolted up like I’ve just been zapped with a thousand volts of electricity. Is this a dream? I often have dreams about being late for school. Did I just slept the entire day? Why didn’t anyone wake me? Is this like a parallel universe or something?

Anxiously, I reached for the useless cell phone which I only use for the alarm function. I pressed a random button and the screen lit up. 7:55. I relaxed a little and peeked at the other alarm clock on top of the dresser next to me. It was flashing and immediately, I knew what it meant. It meant we lost power during the night.

Just then my mom barged into my room. “Did we lose power?” I asked.

“Did we?” She replied, clueless.

“Uh, my clocks are flashing.”

“I just know we lost the internet.” How does she know that, I wonder? Because if the internet was out when the power went out, then when the power came back on, so should the internet and in minutes. Does this mean she was up in the middle of the night?

I still haven’t reset my clocks yet, maybe later. I just came home a few hours ago after sitting in the testing center for three hours taking an exam about a book with concepts that feels way out of time. It’s a textbook novel about the evolution of cost accounting in a hospital setting. I hope I did well. I still have three more exams before I’m officially done with this semester.

I came home, almost 1 pm, hands shaking and stomach growling. I asked my mom if she’d eaten yet (being thoughtful). She said yeah and told me to eat all the leftover beef. I looked at the bowl of leftover beef. “It’s too much. I can’t eat it all.”

“Then make some noodle for me.”

“I thought you’ve eaten.”

“But I’m not full.”

I threw in an extra ramen and when I was so close to be done, she came downstairs, frustrated. She had just texted her tenant about the air conditioning tuneup appointment she had made for them all by herself. “Put some lettuce in there. We have so much.”

I paused cooking and became irritated. Don’t get angry, don’t get angry. I told myself. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. “I just want this done. I want to eat.” I said with clenched teeth.

“Fine whatever. Too much, you complain, not enough, you complain.” I took a few more super deep breaths, convinced myself to ignore her.

After the beef was done, I just poured them with the noodles. I sat at the end of the counter and ate my lunch silently. I was in no mood to make conversation, although I had no idea why. The moment I finished cleaning everything up, I bolted for my room. I sat at the computer, wanted to start studying for the next exam but my brain was fried. I had no idea what to write for anything let alone the A to Z challenge. So I spent the afternoon catching up on TV shows.

Now, I think I’m ready to get back to work and study for the next exam now. Anyway, just a quick update. 🙂

#AtoZChallenge – S/T For San Francisco/Turtles


I’m combining S and T so I don’t have to write another post.  Continue reading “#AtoZChallenge – S/T For San Francisco/Turtles”

#AtoZChallenge – R For Reminder/Ranch


There are so many words for R. Therefore I’m going to throw out two from the top of my head. Just now, while I waited for my lunch to finish cooking in the microwave, my eyes landed on the calendar. I’ve been very fuzzy lately and often forget the date. I know what day it is, just can’t remember the date. So when my eyes landed on the calendar, I thought it was weird. An eye exam? Today? Oh no!

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The eye exam isn’t for me, it’s mom’s. Gosh I cross my fingers to hope she remembered. If she misses the appointment, it will be all my fault and I will be in such big trouble. I’m already in big trouble last night for not calling her immediately the insurance company never put my old car back onto the insurance policy last October.

You see, that’s a downside of not having a cell phone. I don’t know where she works nowadays and have no clue if she checks the texts and I hate texting, did I mention that? Anyway, if she checks it, great, but if she doesn’t, it’ll still be my fault for not taking the aggressive approach to inquire the insurance agent. In another word, scream at the agent.

Therefore, if I screw up again today, I don’t know what will happen to me. I’m scare which brings me to the second word, ranch. If I can get away now, I will probably go to a ranch. After all, a lot of fugitives (joking, maybe) have known to hide out in ranches. Hey, I’m a fugitive, a fugitive of an emotionally abusive mother. Isn’t that reason enough?

I want to go to a ranch because of the vast space. Acres and acres of grass and land. No burning hot asphalt and certainly no pavement. I would love that. Wait doesn’t everybody?

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